Dont rain on my parade
im so tired of having to explain my self to my friends.
And im not talking about all my friends.. So Jess dont get worried lol..
Im talking about my little group over here in dallas well i dont even know if i should call them my group because they just give me more pain then i can handle. Ever since Ryan and I had our trouble and then my grandmother getting sick, i’ve had to explain my self all the time on why i choosed to do things a certain way, or why i didn’t show up to a certain event. Its just so sad that i would have to do that. I don’t understand why??? ugh!
All they do is start drama for me. About 2 months ago they accused Ryan of cheating on me, whichhhh i know for sure was a lie because im always with him and talk to him constantly. Like they were telling me who my boyfriend was like i dont even know him. and nowwww those certain people are having their own relationship troubles for accusing their significant other they were cheating on them. So you know it all makes sense. Its just one vicious circle you know. They want to bring you down. This is my first xmas im actually excitied about because i saved up money and got my parents really good gifts, which they deserve you know. Then my supposely good friend TOLD ME….. that it seems i dont even want to see her that i only want to hang out when its convient for myself. which WTF well of course i can only go out when i have time and she said i should be considerate because she works for retail and her schedule is whacked out well duhhhhhhhh dont act like i didnt work in retail for like 5 years soooo wtf does that mean. All i do is care and i get shit back just drama, its not high school any more people. Im just so frustrated with these people like i feel like i should just cut ties from all this certain group you know. I think a true friend a real friend would not make me explain myself or my actions, They should just know whats going on with me or whatever.
Also this friend complained about me not texting back… Omg they never text me back when i try to texting them or inviting them somewhere. So if im at work and get a text, i cant automatically just text them back right away. Sometimes i forget to write back because its been so long since i seen that text. So i dont even know.. Then today i get a message from another friend saying pretty much im a bad friend, they are a bigger person because they were ticked off at me because on my birthday i was suppose to hang out with them one night i planned but i also told me i wasnt 100% sure about those plans because i was waiting to hear from my friend who lives in denton that i dont see all that often but i see this friend all the time. So of course i was going to hang out with the friend i dont see very often. Im not sure im just annoyed and frustrated and theres so many little things that im just realizing thats building up and im starting to reconginize that im just tired of it all. I needed to get this all out before i explode. I just want to say F*** Off and leave me alone if you dont want to be my friend then just go. Im tired of having to prove myself to these people. Im effin DONE!
2 years ago • Notes